Adek..

We were having supper at some coffee shop in Clementi area..
Then this little boy came to us...

"Cik.. nak belik ondeh-ondeh tak? Duer ringgit je.. Kueh kecik kecik pon ader.."
From a worn-out paper bag..he took out 2 plastic packets with small kuehs init.. He laid it on the table..which was at his eye-level.. and waited for our response.. He jus looked at us wif his big eyes..


Izzati then asked the boy where he was from and all those small questions you'd prolly ask a toddler.. And there he was 9 at night.. selling kuehs wif his sister.. he's jus 5 years old man.. I knew Izzati would cry if there wasnt anyone around..

"Adek tinggal mana?"

"Teban.."

"Abeh adek datang sorang?"

"Tak..datang samer kakak.. abeh abang tunggu pat sana tuu hujong sana.."

After we bought his kuehs.. dia sempat tanya...

"Cik...nak plastic tak?"


Adek..
Adek dah besar, jangan jadi macam abang
Adek dengarlah cakap ibu
Adek dengarlah cakap ayah

Adek dah besar.. capai lah wawasan
Adek balas lah jasa mama dan papa

Adek..
Maafkan abang adek..
Dunia adek tak sama seperti dulu
Dunia abang dulu..tiada risau.. hanya ceria
Dunia adek skarang.. hanya kecewa, hanya lara

Adek..
Ini bukan balasanmu adek..
Yang salah adalah kita..

Adek..
Adek janganlah menangis..
Abang tahu abang yang salah..


Abang kata abang risau lihat adek begini
Tapi kata hanya kata, abang tak buat apa apa
Abang kata saja abang akan tolong
Bila ada duit, bila ada masa
Tapi bila adek tiba.. abang buat pura pura

Adek..
Maafkan kami semua..
Kasih sayang tiada lagi..
Kerna kami semua mementingkan diri..

Mama.. kenaper adek tak pegi skola?
Papa.. kenaper kawan adek kata papa jahat?

Mama.. Adek lapar mama..
Papa.. mana mama?


~Adek... adek dah besar.. nak jadi ape?~

Efin

Jolei !~

Hey Blogster...

its been a week ey =)

You know...there are times when you'd dream of one thing
Like.. just day dream and think about it
And wishing that one day it would happen
Yea... I've been dreaming too
And wow... it came true =)


Snapped at the chance when Jihad offered me to join the Community Drumming Festival. Sounded like something new and fun..so yeah just thot i'mma givit a try. And boy did i really enjoy everybit of it...

1st day at St Gabriel Sec was already awesome.. how lucky we were that it was da training centre for the Djembe Percussion!!! Kau...like... what more could we ask for seh!!! Me and Jad are total freakheads when it comes to djembe drums.. Ok lah for those of you yg ada lembab sket.. djembe ni is an African tribal drum.. from West Africa.. pat Mali sana... So anyway.. The people from Lila's Drums.. Kelvin, Shahrul, and Jason, were our instructors and they were awesome in everyway man..
Somehow i guess Kelvin knew that Jad, Idafi, Mat, Marleen, and me could pick up the lead djembe and he gave da front line to us.. fantabulous man.. 5 raw talents playing upfront to lead a group of some 200 crazy lower sec kids.. and really man they are crazy shit dey drive people nuts with their attitude seh..

Kkk back to the story.. we trained for 2 days under Kelvin as he thought us a piece which was titled "Jolei".. said he learnt it from a fren from West Africa.. Hehehe somehow we all could pick it up quite fast.. and it grooves like.. i dunno.. the best beats that i could ever imagine to be playing.. Fingers hurting and swelling.. kids screaming and fighting.. it was pure African jungle man..

And did u know..we were playing on brand new djembe drums freshly imported from the U.S. , 700 bucks... and we got to lay our hands on it 1st.. tune it.. and made it our passion for that four days.. And i still miss holding my djembe and drumming around n running like an Red Indian with it.. Darn it rocks like everything man..

Training was on Weds and Thurs,den had rehearsal at ITE East College on Friday. Kau..that college is friggin nice ah..jealous haram seh.. Friggin airconditioned indoor stadium.. basketball hoops lowered from da ceiling.. friggin nice fountain.. i wanna burn it down =p

Ok lets skip rehearsal and go to da big day.. Saturday.. D-Day... Time to show em wat we've got.. all suit up in our dirty green tshirt, jeans, and kickass bandanas.. we were dressed to Jolei bebeh!!! 4 guys and a girl inna centre.. frontline drummers just ready to lay down some African kickass to da crowd.. GIMME SOME SHUGAAH!!! I guess Kelvin really knew how to grab the show man..he arranged everything so well.. i really think the crowd loved us.. the darn kids were awesome.. and i guess all we wanted to do was have fun and let lose all passion that's from within.. How often could u get 4 guys shaking their booties and prancing around like Indians wif djembes man..and still be playing the correct syncronised beat~ If only u saw... =) You'd definitely wanna join us... Definitely..

I could only describe so much, but if only you could feel the burning passion that charged thru us everytime we hit the djembe and ran around.. all soaked up in sweat and still beating it all over.. If only you could feel how we felt.. If only your hands would speak of the same passion as us.. If only.. Only you'll understand what i'm trying to say..

Dreams like this could only come once... and i lived it for 4 days.. 4 days.. doing what i loved for 4 days.. and den performing it in front of the grandstand.. the lights.. the sound.. the aura... everyone...everything.. This dream that i thought would only be for moments when i'm all blur during lectures or riding da train home.. this dream just came true and it had me by the edge..

When will we realise that opportunities like these don't come all da time.. When will we realise that nothing will stop us when our passion burns greater and greater.. When will you realise that what seems to be dreams are meant to be lived.. O when will you realise... ?
To the gang from Lila's Drums, Kelvin Shahrul and Jason.. you guys are the best and coolest kickass mentors i've ever had.. You guys just taught me that such passion shouldnt be put to sleep.. Coz you'll only live with it once.. Thanx to Jad for inviting me.. to Idafi Mat Marleen.. you guys are the best craziest frontliners to beat da shit outta those drums.. and to the friggin noisy kids of St Gabriel.. you guys shd learn to shut up.. =p hahaha...you guys are like the craziest little brothers..drives people up the wall and down again and up and down and over and over.. you get the picture ryte~ =p

At then end of the day..even though i'm still shagged by all that has happened.. even though my shoulders are still aching.. even though my fingers are cacat already.. i think i did take care of myself.. yeah i had like alot of people telling me to sit still at home and rest..but yeah.. i took care of myself and i'm feeling great..just need more rest and i'mma be good =)


I'mma put da Drumming Festival pics in my bucket...hit me wif u wanna see it =)

*PS : Ipin dah besar nak kompol duit beli djembe =p

Thanks to everyone..


Efin

Your last thrill.. Sazali..

A long week.. definitely...


Wednesday

Had a small performance for the freshies
Warisan and Wawasan
A lil to slackish though..
But i hope you guys liked it =p
We also celebrated Jihad's Birthday
Hehehe...we punk'ed him b4 givin some cake
Haddad basket seh..marah Jad pasal gi samprong masa meeting
Abeh tu muker Jad masam seh hahaha...
Pastu nyanyi...pastu potong cake..
Ala biasa ah.. i'm smeared cake on him..
Den malam he blanj us sheesha..dua lagi..
I think dat nyte's one a lil too strong..
Balik tak tertido sampai kol 3 seh..
Happy Birthday Jihad =)


Thursday

Rest day...
Reached home at 530...
Slept my ass off till nyte..den woke up
Gosok baju Sazali..Friday's his last performance
Den continued sleeping..


Friday

After school went gym wif Jad
Den showered n got back to MLS
Left for Taman Warisan wif the freshies
Last show for Haddad b4 he serves nation's dog-hood
Wanted tis to be one to remember..
The place... A.W.E.S.O.M.E.
You klutz should go n visit it..
The stage set..we opened the theatre nyte..
For once got to wear ear-held mics
And we heard the song "Anakku Sazali"
Everytime Sazali hears it..he would live again..
To tell his tale.. and how much he is still a boy..
For once i could hear him sing "Embun~"..
For once it sounded nice.. short but mystical
And Khai sang wonderfully...bro u do dat all da tyme =)
And yeah..Izzati was back with us..lama menghilang..
The nyte was great...farewell Haddad...
Come back to us.. you belong here..


Saturday

Did nothing until 9pm
Went out wif the boys till 1.30am..
Slept over at Emi's..
Missed hangin out with them..


Sunday

Soccer at 11.. den gi saloon wif Ridhuan n Emi
Tido pat rumah Nyayi sampai kol 7..
den went home after dat..
i'm burnt out... awww darn~

Just for the record
Don't be offended by my last entry
I had it on myself.. so yeah..
Self inflicted..
The things we do for the things we love..
Until we forget we've got ourselves to love..
I still love each and everyone of you..
But now i've gotta do things for myself..
Trust me on this..

I've been so busy..and i'll still be busy
But a promise for myself..
I'mma make time for my own..
After all work is done..
We'll see us again in the picture..

Sazali..
You've been great..
Its just diffrent..you're your own..not like me
I guess somehow you've made a life out of me..
And for everybit of love..hate..passion..fury..
It was worth living thru it with you..
And now i put you to sleep..until the calling
For you to be reborn.. and take your place as me

Li...pergilah kau buat sementara..
Kembalilah bila apimu menyala..



Efin

Pissed off... pissed off.. pissed off...

No i dunno why..
And i don't even wanna know the reasons
I'z jus pissed off bout lotsa things
Maybe i'm not even supposed to feel so
But...crap i just felt fucked-up

No i don't blame you
nor you..
neither you too
It's all on me...

I wanna be ruthless
I wanna be selfish
I don't wanna givva damn no more
Coz i got myself to give a damn for

For once i don't wanna care..
So gimme this chance..
Or i'mma hafta take it out on others..

Sazali